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Skip to main content. Log In Sign Up. Chuck Traynor, Leonard Campagna a. Lenny Camp , Philip J. For Linda Lovelace this period was hardly less of a roller coaster ride than the preceding years, and it was to end only after her life came tragically, even eerily, full circle.

He was stiff and he guided himself into and out of my mouth. By now, a third man had taken off his shorts and was coming over to the bed.

He reached down, took my hand, and put it on his thing. You just go on sucking. I had the feeling that this was no more exciting for them than it was for me; they were robots with a robot.

They would busy themselves for a while at one spot, then change positions. One of the other men was still talking to Chuck, still complaining that my attitude was not all that it might have been.

The fifth man—he was about thirty-five with blond hair parted on the side—was not taking part. He stood near the other bed and most of the remarks were sent in his direction. Jim remained quiet and his eyes seemed sad. For a while, I almost liked him, but then he joined the party, as did the fifth man. Chuck went over to the window beside the front door and remained there, looking out, standing guard.

My first thought was that we were going to stop and get something to eat. By this time I had lost all appetite. The man who had been calling for the sandwich lay on his back and the others put me on top of him.

Then I felt another man climbing on my backside. I understood then that they were talking about a human sandwich. I had never experienced anal sex before and it really ripped me up. I began to whimper. He was the top half of the sandwich. The three animals who had come on first cared about nothing but getting their jollies. I can no longer remember their faces. They never talked to me directly. Most of the time my eyes were tightly closed.

They picked me up and moved me here and there; they spread my legs this way and that; they shoved their things at me and into me. Three of the animals were constant and persistent, always coming at me, not even resting between times. The other two would back off from time to time. Two of the men got their biggest thrill by working themselves up to the point of coming and then shooting their sperm all over my body and rubbing it in.

I had never been so frightened in my life. Every time I looked over at Chuck, his look scared me all over again. I was scared by what was happening to me at that moment and what might happen to me next. I had no idea what they were talking about. But two of the men tried to pry their way ino me at the same time.

A lot was still happening to my body but it stopped meaning anything to me. My breasts were being mauled and I stopped feeling that. It was as if my body belonged to someone else. Finally they began to tire and to take occasional breaks.

Maybe they were getting bored. After all, I had only so many hands and only so many openings and before too long, all possibilities were exhausted. Then Chuck came over to the bed and looked down at me. I had never wanted a shower so much, and I had never scrubbed myself so hard. I scrubbed at my skin where they had come all over me. Then I scrubbed at the rest of me. I wished I could melt into the shower drain and disappear. I was filled with hurt. And I kept turning to God.

As far as I was concerned, it was His fault. He had put me here. All the time I was in the shower, I was talking to God. Please tell me why. He did help me get through it.

He did help me survive. So I guess He was helping me out after all.

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But it took me a long time to come to that belief. When I went into the room to dress, the men were gone and Chuck was counting out the money on the bed. The one who had been complaining about my attitude had demanded a refund and Chuck had given him back half his money. I was still speechless and in shock.

I had no idea that human beings did such things. I knew that a prostitute offered sex for money, but somehow I figured they would make love—that there would be kissing and caressing and some gentleness. I followed him out of the room and to the car. The minute we were in the car, with the doors closed, he turned to me and started yelling. What the fuck is it with you anyway? You better start getting your shit together, Linda.

I could still feel those hands all over me, pressing me, squeezing me, milking me. You know the difference between you and a pro? The way you were, they hadda do all the fucking work. I went over exactly what had happened. Good God! We can write them off. You know what I was trying to do today? I was trying to get a business started. Our business. Just trying to get a business started.

You know how you fucking get a business started? Then each of them goes out and tells two more people. Then you got ten, fifteen, guys. And they talk it up and then you got a little business going there. You know what these guys are going to tell their friends after today?

Next time better be different. Next time better be better. Oh, God, what next time? The following day, Chuck introduced me to a visitor, an old friend who managed a truck-rental business, and my name became Tracy at this point. I was alone with my first paying customer, my first trick.

Harry thumbed through his wallet and fished out two twenty- dollar bills. Just like old times. He was soft- spoken and that has always been an important quality with me. But at this moment he was not even on my mind that much; I was hardly thinking about him.

I could think of only one thing— Chuck had finally left me alone. Well, not entirely alone. There was one matter to take care of first. I took off my jeans and blouse and laid them over a chair. Was I supposed to take off the rest or was he? I had no idea. I went over to the bed and sat down on the edge of it and waited for him to come over and do whatever he was going to do to me. But the thing is, you should at least be friendly. In fact, you should fake like you really want it.

I was scared and I was dry but Harry went right into me. But he went on anyway, pumping away. I lay there lifeless, letting him do all the work. Before too much longer, I would learn to fake it, even to be aggressive, just like the other hookers, but right then I just wanted him to finish and get off me. The moment he was done, I rolled out from under him and went to get my clothes. But finally he stopped laughing, got up, got himself dressed and got himself out the front door.

I counted to ten, then followed him. As I opened the door, I heard a small noise behind me. A hand on my shoulder. He had been standing there in the hallway the whole time. Then he started punching my body over and over again until I collapsed on the floor. No fucking good! Every day I either got raped, beaten, kicked, punched, smacked, choked, degraded, or yelled at.

Sometimes, I got all of the above. Strangely enough, what bothered me most was the endless verbal abuse. He never let up: I was so dumb; I was so ugly; I was so fat; I was so thin; I was so flat-chested, and I was so lucky to have him taking care of me.

The constant yelling took everything out of me. I had as much to do with the money as a teller at a bank; I got it from one man and passed it along to another man. That was the end of my contact with any money. These financial transactions would occur three times on an average day. Before long, as his business grew, Chuck was able to add to his staff.

The first arrival was a young girl named Moonshine. Moonshine was strictly a volunteer. She had been making love with a married man who had been paying her rent.

A second boyfriend started taking care of her telephone bill. There was someone else to pay the electric bill and a fourth man who gave her a rented car to use. Before long, Moonshine had many steady visitors and no bills to pay.

She came to Chuck with the idea of expanding her horizons and perhaps even getting some take-home pay. At any rate, Moonshine was there to share the work load.

Then came Debbie. And Melody. Now you might think that this would take some of the pressure off me. But there was more to it than that. You see, Chuck had his own system of distributing the tricks. If a customer was handsome or clean-cut or just young, Chuck would send him off with one of the other working girls.

He would fix me up with creeps and degenerates; he would watch them rape me through a hole in the mirror; but he would bristle with jealousy if a young or good-looking man paid any attention to me. You are jealous. And, in truth, I began to forget what normal people with normal feelings were like. Lines like: And then there was Greg. Greg was thirty-eight years old, a successful architect, and he hired two of us. Greg had a slightly different script. What are you doing with this cheap girl?

I guess this is where I got my early dramatic training. All I had to do was take off my clothes and take a bubble bath in one of those circular sunken tubs. The trick sat and watched me soap myself for a full hour and that was the extent of our involvement.

I had no idea how I was supposed to react to this sort of thing. Before he left, the trick complained to Chuck about my amateurishness. Also to a brand new line of verbal abuse: One trick who lived alone on a houseboat asked me to sit on his face and urinate in his mouth.

The trick got angrier and angrier, and, finally, he screamed at me to go into the bathroom and put it in a glass. I returned with a glassful of urine and he drank it down. Then he told me to get off his boat and never come back. I was happy to oblige. And there was always the possibility of escape, the thought that he might slip up and leave me unguarded for a few minutes. Still and all, the trips from home were never what you might call pleasure trips. For one thing, I never knew what might be waiting for me on the other side of a door.

Early in August, Chuck drove me to a private home in South Miami. The door was answered by a fat man with oiled black hair, maybe fifty-five years old. The fat man—his name was Leonard Campagno, also known as Lenny Camp—lived in incredible squalor. His living room was filled with boxes and crates. Newspapers were a carpet over the floor and cats were everywhere.

Dishes with food still on them were spread over the table and piled in the sink. I could see cat hairs in the sugar bowl. Lenny led us through this litter to a bedroom in the back.

It was not quite as sleazy as the rest of the house. At least there were clean sheets on the bed. Floodlights had been set up around the bed and were pointing down at it. Sometimes I felt almost invisible. Now move it. I should never let anyone take my picture, and I should never sign my name to anything.

He said those were two things that would always come back and haunt you later on. There never was a way to argue with Chuck, no way to even discuss anything. I had no notion of what was going to happen here, only that I was going to take my clothes off and be photographed.

In all our time together, Chuck never bothered to explain anything. Mine was no longer one of those lives where you could tell what was going to happen next. I was in the bathroom, naked, putting on some lipstick, when the door opened behind me. My visitor was a tiny girl, five feet tall and very slim, brown-haired, about eighteen years old and also naked.

All the time she put on her makeup, she was telling her life story. She glanced at me in the mirror and stopped putting on her lipstick. I had already figured out that I was going to be photographed in compromising positions—but which compromising positions? That was my only answer. Chicklet came over to me and put her arm around my shoulder. Suddenly her voice was very soothing. Lenny tells us what he wants and we just go through the motions.

So relax, willya? The fat man, two different cameras roped around his neck, was waiting for us. Chuck was leaning against a wall, staring right through me. I think his whole pleasure in life was watching me react to things. Just a few little kisserinos. As that was happening, I made myself go numb.

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I thought of myself as a metal robot, no human feelings at all, and that worked for a while. I was feeling nothing.

A skinny naked girl was kissing me on the mouth and I felt nothing at all. Click, click, click. No, no, no! Wouldja at least try to make it look natural? Try to make it look natural? What on earth would make that natural? I could be a robot through the kissing and even through touching her breast. I could go through the motions and erase them from my mind almost as they were happening. But when it came to something like sixty-nine, something that personal with another woman, it really blew my mind.

I had never even let a man do that to me. Look, when you go down on me, just fake it. All I know is that it was far worse.

At the same time I was wondering what they were doing with the pictures they were taking. Where would they go? Would my mother and father ever see them?

I had an awful feeling that the pictures would someday be used against me. Whether they were or not, they made this part of my life real, part of some record, uneraseable. This was a day of many firsts. The first photographs. The first sex with another woman. And there was still another first to come. When the fat photographer had enough pictures of the two of us together, he went into another room and came back with something that he started to strap onto Chicklet.

It was a strap-on, make-believe, male sex organ. My first dildo. Then, assuming the male role, something she did with no difficulty at all, Chicklet got on top of me and put the dildo inside of me.

The fat man came in very close with his camera. So there I was, being photographed by a fat degenerate while a skinny little girl with a make-believe penis was having sex with me, and I looked over at Chuck.

He was watching the scene with a very superior expression. At moments like these, the lowest spots in my life, whenever I saw Chuck watching me, I would become aware of just one thing, his missing finger. Under normal circumstances—say we were just driving along in his car—I would never notice it. Now all I could see was the deformed hand, the absent finger.

Chicklet was my first female sex partner. Not my last. As soon as Chuck saw how much pain this experience caused me, he made sure that it became a key part of my repertoire. Many men like to rent that particular fantasy—two women making love to each other while the man becomes excited and then joins in.

I only liked one of the women I was coupled with—and the sex itself had nothing whatever to do with my liking her. Melody was the first person to help me in any way. One day she saw Chuck hit me and that was enough for her. From that moment on, she was my friend. Melody was a strange kind of a girl to be a hooker. She was very intelligent and always carried a book to read with her, even on jobs. Melody was cute rather than sexy looking—about five-two, light brown curly hair, pug nose, non-stop smile.

She reminded me of a high school cheerleader. Melody was a madame with a small operation of her own; she lived in and worked out of a tastefully decorated four-room apartment.

If they were really weird, disgustingly so, Chuck made sure that they eventually found their way to me. From the beginning, Melody seemed to take a personal interest in me. Whenever she had a job that required more than one hooker, she would call up Chuck and put in a request for me. Chuck would drive me to the meeting and wait nearby. He was never far away, but at least I was out of his sight for a time.

Melody seemed to understand Chuck very well. She knew just what to tell him to get me off on a job with her. She would tell Chuck the most degenerate stuff she could think up and he would leap at the bait.

Well, Linda would like to do that trick. This was an old guy in a wheelchair, barely able to stand up. He would hire six or seven girls and each girl would get a fifty-dollar bill. One girl would stand behind him, holding him upright, while all the other girls except me would be on the carpet, kissing each other and making love.

My job was to kneel in front of him and suck him off. Melody would give me that task because she knew that I found that easier than being with another woman.

But it was no use; there was no holding them back. I told Melody everything that had happened: Tell him that today I tied all the other girls together, locking them into strange positions, and then the old guy began beating on everyone with a cane.

Hit me! Harder, harder! Melody told me every unnatural act she had ever heard of, and then she made up some brand new ones just for Chuck. And almost every day she managed to find me a trick in a hotel or an apartment, a job that got me away from Chuck, if only for a little while.

Chuck was happy to have me do that one for two reasons: To make up for jobs like that one, Melody would also take me along on her easiest tricks. There was Leo, a retired clothing manufacturer who had a condominium on the beach. When you first arrived, Leo made you go through closets filled with dresses, gowns, and lingerie. You were allowed to select whatever you liked. Afterwards, he would give us each thirty dollars and the clothes we had modeled; that clothing was the only payment I was ever allowed to keep.

I knew that someday God would get me away from Chuck but until then, until God made His move, my only help came from Melody. She kept thinking up new perversions for me to tell Chuck. She was like that girl in The Arabian Nights, the one who had to tell the king a brand new story every day, only the stories Melody told me were not exactly fairy tales.

The two-headed dildoes are about this long and this big around. Tell him that the trick had one of those with him and you had to insert both ends of it at once.

I was sure that Chuck would start laughing at me when I told him a story like that. Every time Melody and I turned a trick together, we would find time for a little talk. The first time Chuck saw me looking at it, he tore it from my hands and threw it away. There were other times with Melody when I felt very uncomfortable.

One day after our regular session with Leo, she reached out and touched my hand. I do love you. Do you know what I mean? I need you as a friend.

You would learn to love me. She cared and that was enough. Maybe she was doing things for her own benefit. But whatever her motives were, she did manage to get Chuck Traynor off my back and out of my sight from time to time.

Escape seemed a possibility. And escape was all I was thinking about those days. They wonder whether it is possible to go through weeks and months of incredible sexual activity and receive no sensual pleasure at all. Did I enjoy any of it? I want to state this as clearly as I can. There was no pleasure. There was no love, no affection, no normal sex with anyone from the day I met Chuck Traynor until the day I finally got away.

I did not have a single orgasm for six or seven years. I never had any enjoyment from any of it at all. In fact, the only trick I could ever have a decent conversation with was a mortician named Jason. The first time Jason came to the house he told he just wanted to talk to me, nothing more.

But for today I just wanted to get to know you. That was just fine with me. Even though he was a paying customer, Jason never did a cruel thing to me. At first, the fact that he was a mortician gave me the willies but that feeling faded as I spent more and more time with him. No, it was never a pleasure—but it was a relief. One day, as his hour of romance was coming to an end, Jason made the mistake of asking me a question I had already heard a dozen times.

I could tell that this was not the kind of thing he was paying to hear. As the story poured out of me, his mood went from serious to sad to deeply concerned.

What woods? We could be together all the time and really be in love. Perhaps I was getting into something far worse? What kind of man prefers make- believe love over real love? Then I thought about his being a mortician—maybe he was one of those guys who liked dead bodies; Chuck had told me about them. Maybe he was just another super-freak who wanted to get me up in the woods of Georgia so that he could kill me.

The bottom line: I chickened out. When I do think about it how, when I go back to moments like that, I start to jam—my head gets all jammed up. Or with Melody? How could it possibly have been any worse than what happened to me? Was I so terrified that everything in life scared me? Life with Chuck never improved. I learned to settle for the smallest imaginable triumphs, the absence of pain or the momentary lessening of terror.

In time, I learned to satisfy men like Chuck—men who got their kicks from pain. I learned how to do this without suffering too much pain myself.

I set about teaching all of my muscles to relax. It got so that I could relax any set of muscles at will. So when Chuck started putting his fist inside of me, I was able to relax and cut back on the pain. On the contrary, I would scream for mercy, and he would become hard and ejaculate almost instantly; then he would leave me alone for a while.

I was becoming quite a little actress. I learned that it was never enough to fake pain, you had to fake pleasure at the same time: In a strange way, even the sword-swallowing, deep-throat techniques that Chuck had taught me could work to my advantage.

There were times when Chuck would make me work parties with maybe fifteen men and two chicks. I was a virgin until I was almost twenty years old, and only a couple of men before Chuck had ever made love to me.

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What I found most degrading was when a man put his thing inside of me and came. The thought of fifteen men doing that in one night was more than I could tolerate. I had a choice of which was better for me to do, which made me feel more comfortable. And sucking cock made me feel more comfortable than being fucked. Because of my ability to totally relax my throat muscles, I became very popular with men who were into oral sex.

Chuck was very pleased with this. He called it word-of-mouth advertising. I can see it in the face asking the question. The questioner always has the sure knowledge that this could never have happened to him or to her.

They would have been strong enough and smart enough and resourceful enough to have gotten away. In fact, if the truth be known, they would never have allowed themselves to get into this kind of predicament in the first place.

Once, during a grand jury hearing in California, I was asked the question point-blank: Even when no gun could be seen, there was a gun pointed at my head. I can understand why some people have such trouble accepting this as the truth. When I was younger, when I heard about a woman being raped, my secret feeling was that that could never happen to me. I would never permit it to happen. But I know that it did happen once, and I know something else: It could happen again—to me or to you.

At first I was certain that God would help me escape but in time my faith was shaken.

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I became more and more frightened, scared of everything. The very thought of trying to escape was terrifying. I had been degraded every possible way, stripped of all dignity, reduced to an animal and then to a vegetable. Whatever strength I had began to disappear. Simple survival took everything; making it all the way to tomorrow was a victory.

The experience has enabled me to understand many events that others seem to find incomprehensible. I have no difficulty relating to what happened to Patty Hearst; I have the feeling that we could be the closet of friends. Recently when several Playboy bunnies in Great Gorge, New Jersey, were drugged, photographed and forced to work as whores, I could understand the process.

I can even comprehend the Jonestown massacre, hundreds of people standing in line, waiting to drink their cyanide. I know what inhuman doses of fear and pain can do to any human being. Still, there were several times when I did try to escape. My first opportunity came after I had been working as a hooker for almost a month. Kitty— blonde, thin, intense and streetwise—had worked for Chuck earlier and was now returning after a year out on the streets, returning and bringing her own string of steady customers with her.

Kitty was tough and independent. When she realized that I was working against my will, she seemed sympathetic. Whenever his sister went away for a visit, Albert would get on the phone to Kitty. Whenever I went to a new apartment building or hotel, I mentally charted the possible escape routes. This was a two-story, U-shaped building with only a single entranceway.

You walked through a set of arches, then about fifteen feet into a lobby, then up one flight of stairs to the apartment. As Chuck parked the car in front of the building, I realized that I would be out of his range of vision for several moments both coming and going. Sudden panic. I needed time, time to figure out a plan, but there was no time. There was only now. Kitty and I walked from the car toward the arches framing the entrance.

By this time we were up at the top of the stairs and Albert was waving us into his apartment. He was a short man, thin with a protruding pot belly. His bald head was rimmed with black hair. Albert was wearing an undershirt and a pair of shapeless old-man trousers. His apartment reminded me of the set of an old movie. The lamps were covered with heavy fabric shades, and the overstuffed sofa had white doilies on the arm rests.

The stink of cologne was everywhere: As we walked through the living room toward the bedroom, my eyes were darting everywhere looking for an exit. We followed Albert into his bedroom and he turned his back on us and lifted his undershirt over his head. We just have to make nice to my sweetie here. Is there a back way out of here? She knew as well as I did what Chuck would do if we came down without the money. I managed to dial 0 for Operator and then his hand came crushing down on the receiver.

You girls go and get out of here now and just leave bygones be bygones. I have never been so scared. Then I saw that Chuck had moved his car and was parked about a hundred yards away from the entranceway. He seemed to be dozing behind the wheel. There was a chance and I took it.

I felt that I had nothing to lose, there would be a beating no matter what. Chuck, hurry up! If Kitty had remained quiet just one minute more—even a half-minute more—I would have had a shot. But before I reached the corner, Chuck Traynor caught up with me and his grip burnt itself into my upper arm.

Once we were back in the car, Chuck asked me no questions. What I had done was self-explanatory. Besides, Kitty was only too anxious to fill in the details. She told Chuck what I had said on the way into the building, what I had told the old man, even how I had tried to call the police.

At first I gave Kitty the benefit of the doubt. She took too much relish in telling the full story. She was just making brownie points. She wanted to be numero uno with Chuck. Later, when Melody heard this story, Kitty got a comeuppance of sorts. She was blacklisted by all the other hookers in the Miami area.

My punishment was somewhat harsher. Chuck dropped Kitty off and then he took me home. I remember being icy with fear. However, whatever Chuck did to me that afternoon—the details—are gone from my memory. It was a day before I could walk again. And once I could walk, there was nowhere to go. What had been prison was now solitary confinement. It was that kind of a marriage. Chuck Traynor spent much of that summer preparing for his upcoming trial on drug-smuggling charges.

It seems that pounds of marijuana—bales of pot wrapped around coke, hash, speed, LSD and assorted pills—had been dropped in a wooded area south of Miami, not far from the town of Homestead.

Chuck and a friend had been caught carrying their bales to their cars, and a third confederate—this was Worth Devore—had gotten away uncaptured. Mandina seemed as slick as Chuck was crude—always immaculately dressed, flashy and glib.

Mandina and Chuck had once been partners in a tiny airline that made daily runs to the Bahamas. Despite their many surface differences, the two men had much in common, as I was to learn.

I disliked Phil Mandina at first sight. And, as time went on, this dislike was to ripen into hate. We all knew, of course, that Chuck was guilty. I was just another piece of furniture to them, part of the couch in the background, ignored, never part of the conversation, but always listening. Chuck was working out his alibi. And we were out there checking the fields to find a place for the sky-diving club to jump, a target area, you dig?

A sky-diving club. Hmmm, not bad at all. However, a sky-diving club would have to have members. Do you think you can swing that? Let me speak to a few guys. What were you doing out there in those fields?

Did you know that was marijuana? When he was told that full blame for the operation was going to be placed on his shoulders, Worth had a few bad moments. At this point, Mandina seemed to notice my presence for the first time. Although few of them were willing to risk a perjury charge, one friend, a fireman named Bob Phillips, went along with the story. This same Bob Phillips was later given a bit part in Deep Throat. I should have known better. Chuck never paid for anything himself.

As a result of my automobile accident, I still had a case pending in New York and the lawyer who had been representing me was already receiving settlement offers. As payment for his case, Chuck gave Mandina the right to handle my case. I never received any of the settlement money myself. In their last meetings before the trial, Mandina and Chuck went over all the details.

Worth Devore had been instructed not to go near the courthouse under any circumstances. Bob Phillips was ready to testify about the sky-diving club. And then Mandina put Chuck through his dress rehearsal, firing one question after another at him. It was not until the next day that I received my first serious proposal of marriage.

Marriage has always been important to me, perhaps too important. From when I was a small girl I had imagined what marriage would be like. That was all I ever expected from life—to get married to a good man, to have children, and to someday have a home of my own. When I got married, that was going to be it. Marriage is so important to me that I used to fantasize about all aspects of it—the proposal, the wedding night, the honeymoon.

I had even imagined a man on his knees, asking for my hand. Then the kicks started. The following morning we were married. There was no reason to remember the date; I knew that no anniversary would ever be celebrated. Chuck woke me up that day before dawn. It was a six-hour drive to the small town of Valdosta, Georgia, a long drive made longer still by being locked in a car with Chuck.

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Chuck was no longer content to get into a car and just drive somewhere. Now he had invented little games that helped him pass the time. One of his favorite games was to make me bare my breasts so that he could watch the reaction of passing truck drivers.

And there was another game. Before stopping for gas, he would hike my skirt up above my hips and make me spread my legs. He went to a novelty shop. The ring he selected was plastic, one of those interlocking puzzle rings made from a dozen strangely shaped pieces. It set him back two dollars and change. For some reason, the ring did not seem at all inappropriate to the occasion.

When we arrived in Valdosta, we went to the town hall. We were ushered into the office of a Justice of the Peace. The office had high ceilings, narrow windows, a wall of legal books.

The ceremony itself was the simple economy model: The justice spent several minutes trying to get the pieces back together but had to give up. I put it together and Chuck slipped it on my finger while the justice used the incident to make a point: Just outside the hotel he asked a stranger if he would mind taking a photograph of us.

Once we were in the hotel room, he called his mother in North Carolina and told her that we had just tied the knot. She asked to speak to the bride. Yes, it had been a beautiful ceremony.

When Chuck asked me whether I wanted to call my parents and share the good news with them, I declined the invitation.

The reality of my marriage, needless to say, fell somewhat short of my girlhood daydreams. Never depend on fantasy. All my life I had a fantasy of a wedding day, a wedding night, a honeymoon, a handsome prince charming, a happy-ever-after.

Our wedding dinner? We went out to the local greasy spoon and had two cheeseburgers. Our wedding night? We came back to the room, turned on the television set and fell asleep. Sweet talk? A wife can never testify against her husband.

And another thing, you can never have me arrested—a wife can never charge her husband with a crime. But then—and this is just another indication of my gullibility—I accepted whatever Chuck said as the final word on the matter.

Our honeymoon was of a piece with the rest of the marriage. Needing some quick cash before his trial, Chuck decided to go to work for a few days. As you might guess, that presented Chuck with a problem: Chuck solved the problem in his own inimitable way.

He asked his boss if he would mind guarding me while Chuck was working. In exchange for that, the boss could have sex with me whenever he wanted it. The jury certainly would see through their little sky-diving story. The trial lasted a week and, until Chuck took the stand, it went much the way I expected.

Then Chuck took over—and I do mean took over. He has to be the greatest conman who ever lived. He had been caught red-handed with a bale of marijuana, and he told the jury he was just getting the stuff away from kids in the area. By the time he was through testifying about his sky-diving club, even I was looking for his parachute. After the not-guilty verdict, one of the jurors came over to Chuck. Chuck was on top of the world that afternoon, as up as I was down.

He kept telling me about his glorious career as a high school debater, kept bragging about how he had turned a district attorney into a monkey. I was depressed for several reasons. I was still not free of Chuck and, beyond that fact, I had just seen how easy it was for an accomplished liar to defeat the legal system in this country.

It had been so easy for Chuck Traynor to manipulate the jury, the judge, the whole system. I had the feeling that there was nothing that could stop him now.

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